Stories of Guests from MycoMeditations Psilocybin Retreat
By MycoMeditations
This interview series brings you inside the experiences of people who joined us at our psychedelic retreat to heal with psilocybin therapy.
We asked Beverly—a woman in her 60's from Florida—six questions to understand what a typical day was like for her before MycoMeditations, how she made the decision to try psilocybin therapy, the key moments of her transformative week, and more.
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What was a typical day like for you before attending the retreat?
My normal day began with me sleeping very late every single day, anywhere between 9 AM to 1 PM. All of my friends and family have always teased me about not being normal with my sleeping habits. Then I would simply function. There seemed to be little real joy in my life. I told myself I was happy, but was I really? I kept thinking. I would commit to social engagements but back out at the last minute. If I did participate in gatherings, I could not wait to leave. I worried about everything possible.
Looking back, what moment or event signaled to you that you needed a change?
I had been on antidepressants for 35 years due to a situational incident. I wanted to “feel” something again. So, with the help of my Medical Doctor, I began to wean myself off of my crutch. I knew that I still needed help with my severe anxiety, so my search began. I came across the
Soft White Unberbelly interview on YouTube with Justin Townsend, CEO and co-owner of MycoMeditations. I felt, after watching this video, that I had found the answer. As my husband said after watching the video for the first time, “Hunny, I think we are onto something.”
Can you describe an eye-opening moment you experienced during the retreat?
I cannot say there was just one epiphany, I can say there were several and they were all profound. After my first dose, the chatter—the constant replaying of events in my life—stopped. I could actually rest when I laid down to go to sleep. I was waking up early! And I felt good and wanted to eat breakfast with the group and get my day started!
Was there a particular session or moment that stands out as pivotal to your experience?
My second dose was very hard. I even called it “brutal” at the time. I felt the profoundness and clarity of something that had deeply affected me for most of my life. As difficult as the trip was, I was able to let it go. I was able to put it behind me with kindness towards myself. Now, I don't feel the blame and shame that I have carried for years. The third trip was enlightening. It opened my heart to new ideas of how to be happy and live my life to the fullest from this point forward.
How has your self-esteem or self-image changed since completing the retreat?
My anxiety has gone away! And now, by not needing to sleep so much now, I realize I was much more depressed than I thought. That has gone away too! I'm feeling happiness and I want to smile and sing and dance—at home—of course! Lol I want to have fun once more! And I now feel that I deserve this.
In one sentence, what can you say about this experience to somebody considering a MycoMeditations retreat?
Do your due diligence but don’t overthink it, just do it.
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If Beverly's story inspires you to embark on your own healing experience with psilocybin therapy at MycoMeditations, we invite you to
apply for one of our retreats!
